Ponderings...

So, I ponder there have been plenty of times in my life that I have said things that I shouldn't have and didn't say things I should have.

I imagine that the same is true of things I have done and shouldn't have, and and things that I haven't done and really should've.

I ponder that life is full of shoulda, coulda, woulda's.

Free will, and human nature...do you ever wonder if God hadn't given us free will and our brains actually only functioned they way that he wants them to that it would just be so much easier? I know I have. This ol' world really wouldn't be what it is today.

Just some thoughts, thought I would jot.

God! It's Late....

I don't feel well....my head feels like it could explode, my ears are hurting..I left work early today, with the intention of resting. Well...ha!

When I got home...I was drawn to my computer, which I was up late lastnight trying to update...and get some un-needed proggies off of it. Considering I thought I wasn't going to have on at all a couple of days ago. I didn't get it all done lastnight, so, I decided to try and get that done. Which took FOREVER!! After that I talked with Amanda and asked her to look at it and tell me if there was anything she could do to help it...lol

Turns out, that most of the parts in it are about to give out..the fan runs most of the time...but it has done that for a long time..it surges...lol. Well..when that gives out, my motherboard will be fried. Not only that, but, it seems as my memory is most likely corrupted because it isn't showing that I have what I have. So the suggestion she made to me was to back up everything that I wanted to keep so when it does croak, then at least I will have it to put on another one.

Basically my puter is living on borrowed time. At the present I really can't afford to go out and buy another. So, I hope it doesn't die until I can get another...but I doubt it.

When I brought it home tonight it took nearly 45 mins to get it completely booted up so I could get online and check my email...

But at least in the meantime I was able to make something to eat and get a load of laundry washed...ain't that freakin ridiculous??

Isnt it just the way that what you have lasts until you can't afford to fix or replace? Ya, my warranty on this bad boy went out on the 13th of last month.

UGH!!!!!!

Well, here's to hopefully feeling better tomorrow...and getting some decent sleep waiting for it to get here...

Afternoon ya'll...

So, when I returned home yesterday...my computer was still alive thank god..

So I proceeded to get my pics and files transferred to cd. I only took 4 full cd's to get them done...ya...only.

Then I went to see if I could do a back up on it...and it said I would need 32 cd's or 5 dvds....I was like...well I don't have that many, and I would rather find a better way to do it....so, I am going to get Amanda to help me with that....it would have taken forever to do it...and lastnight I didn't have the time or energy to sit at the desk waiting for them to get done.

I'm just thankful its still working for the time being.

Right now, other than this inventory staring me in the face that needs to be sent in, I am pretty much done for the day...

I think I am going to go home and just relax the evening away. With no phone calls or distractions....

C'mon now...y'all know that shit aint gonna happen.....lol

Easy Going Weekend

For the first time in I don't know how long, the girls stayed with their dad for the weekend. I imagine they were pretty happy about that. I didn't get to talk to them at all, they didn't call, and I had no clue how to get in touch with them. That made me a lil uneasy, but everything must have been ok because I am sure that I would have received a call at some point.

They are going to the doctor today, they have both miss pretty much the last 2 weeks of school because of viruses. They both have double ear infections, which most likely means that Sierra will be having another set of tubes put in her earts. It is also strange because Kayla has a set of tubes in her ears already. So I hope to find out what is going on with that some time today.

I got to spend some much needed time with Greg, which was great. He had to leave and go back to work yesterday. We pretty much lounged around...Greg did go to watch his daughters basketball game on saturday, so I took that time to pay bills and get some things that we needed from walmart..but other than that it was pretty lazy.

After he left yesterday, I spent time doing the dreaded laundry, and cleaning up the house. I stayed up a little later than I normally would on a Sunday night. Anyway. I went to bed, drifted off to sleep...until I was awakened by a pain that felt like a freaking contraction, and I couldn't freakin get rid of it. Couldn't walk...I tried, so, I sat on the edge of my bed for I don't know how long, trying to see if it would subside, I think I sat like that for 30 mins before I could move...I was able to go back to sleep at some point.

When my alarm went off, I did like I do every morning. Until, I heard, a loud "clicking/ticking noise" coming from my living room. Startled me because I thought maybe the bird was choking to death or something...no such luck. It is my freakin laptop.

You hear that sound from a computer, and it makes you wanna cringe. Pretty much means its days are numbered if not already gone. A computers hard drive is somewhat like a record player. If the smallest particle of dust gets under the "needle" it can cause it to skip and do what a record players needle does to a record when it is scratched...basically...screw up the whole thing.

For the mean time this morning it was still running, so, I thought it best to try to copy all of my pics to a cd, because I was afraid that if I tried to restart it that it would be GONE...well..so I started that process...I'm not sure if it finished or not...because it decided to restart itself...and it wasn't up when I had to leave for work. But I didn't have time to mess with it. So, that makes me worry....what the hell am I gonna do with out my laptop??? The kids do have one in their room...and it is older than the one that I have and it tends to crash...thats why it is in the kids room..all they do on it is play games...not all the things I do on my puter. I dunno.

Ain't like we don't have enough debt as it is...I don't need to add another 2 it..but...I do need my computer. SIGH!!!!!

So, I guess when I get home, I will know what is going on..either way, I am likely to pull my hair out..LoL

Well..enough for now..