My Brain!!!

I swear when I use my brain to much, it goes on explosive overload! I mean, seriously! Today was a long day at work, I suppose that we got alot accomplished, but I was there much later than normal. For some reason, the freaking enter button is not working....that really bites! Ok, well, anyway. So, I get home. I check my mail. There is this cute lil card in there....from a very special person. And the card is special as well, because it was MADE, just for me. With loving care, and a crafty hand, and alot of thought. It really meant alot. And I realllllllllllllly appreciated it and truthfully I needed it. In more ways that one, so, to you my Chelle. I thank you..... Geez I wish the freakin' enter button was working! But it isn't so, I move on...... I have been in an off and on again relationship with my sperm donor and his wife since I was 17. And lately there has been no communication between us, on purpose on my part, because my sperm donor can't deal with life unless it revolves around him. The unfortunate thing about it is, because of his actions, he has alienated not only himself, but his wife as well, from my daughters. The reason for that is, I can't have anything to do with her, without having something to do with him, and vice versa. I received a call from his wife late on the evening of my birthday. To which I hit the ignore button, sending her call to voicemail....she wished me a happy birthday. I wonder why she waited until that late at night to call, actually frankly I am surprised she called at all. Then lastnight as I was on the other side of my apartment putting clothes in the dryer, she evidently called me and I didn't hear the phone, so, again it went to voicemail. She asked me to call her and said that she would be up for a while. Of course, again, I ignored it. Tonight when I get home, I have an email from her in my inbox. It said, "Do you have plans for Kayla this Saturday? I would like to take her on a hike at the lake. I know Sierra doesn't like that kinda thing and wants to be with you. I wanted to ask you before I said anything to her." To which I replied, "Yes, I do have plans for both of the girls and myself as it is my weekend. So, no, don't say anything to her." Truthfully, I just don't get it. If you want to see your grandkids, why would you want to plan to do something with just one? Secondly, as far as I am concerned, neither one of them will have anything to do with my girls if I have anything to say about it....and as far as that goes, if I did allow them to see them, it would be both of them and not just one. I will not have one daughter be treated as less that the other because they are not....and I will not have one of my kids not feel as important as the other. I mean....GEEZ! Why should the child have to be the parent here??? Do you understand where I am coming from? All of this coupled with the fact that I think I had my hair pulled up way too tight, and using my brain to compute multiples of 5's playing domino's with my downstairs neighbor.........I believe helped cause a stress/tension/cluster/migraine headache. I popped an excedrin migraine 2 hours ago, and my head hasn't even started to ease up.... I really needed to get this out, if for nothing else than to release a little steam, and hopefully let my brain rest.....and now, I believe I am going to drag my happy ass out of this chair and put it to bed. 6am comes way to early if you are like me and can get to sleep ok, but just can't stay that way. Usually, I am looking at the clock, tossing and turning or getting up to pee every 30 mins to an hour....I truthfully don't believe I have had a full nights sleep in....hell I can't remember when! So, wish me luck! And maybe I will have a much better head on my shoulders in the morning!!!!!!