No Father For Me...Anymore..

I am not doing this anymore.

I am not going to let him get to me ANYMORE!!!

I have not been his little girl for a long time, hell, even when I was a little girl I wasn't his. My parents divorced before my first birthday, I don't even remember seeing my dad for the first time until I was 8. For all of about an hour. Not again until I was 10, for about 2 hours. Then not again until I was 13 and way too much for my mom to handle. I was dubbed the Teenager From Hell. This is when I came to live with him.

I am not saying that I made the right choices then, I'm not even saying that the choice that I made recently is right, and I am not asking anyone to agree with me because I don't care how other people see it. They didn't live my life.

About the only time I hear from my FATHER...yes I said father not dad. There is a difference in the two. You have to earn the respect to be called dad. Any male can be a father, it takes a special one to be a DAD. But I digress. The only time I hear from him is when he wants something, and only if it suits his lifestyle. If something gets in the way of that, anything, he pulls this sort of shit.

Well, I am here to tell you, I won't stand for it anymore. I don't have to and wont go into detail about what was said. Or at least the majority of it.

I will tell you that my answers didn't suit what he wanted I was told "Don't talk to me like that little girl!"

HAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ROFLMMFAO...Oh no, he didn't...but he did...and I didn't take kindly to that. As I stated before, I really never has been his little girl, and therefore I don't bestow the right to call me that on him. And I told him so.

"LITTLE GIRL? REALLY? SINCE WHEN? HERE'S A BEE IN YOUR EAR. YOU HAVEN'T RUN MY LIFE IN A LONG TIME AND I WILL BE DAMNED IF YOU ARE GOING TO START NOW! TELL YA WHAT. YOU STAY OUT OF MY LIFE AND I WILL NOT BE IN YOUR'S. NOT ANYMORE! THIS SHIT IS RIDICULOUS...GROW UP. I AM DONE! "

Thats the g-rated version, at the end of the real version I told him to fuck off. I didn't have him then, and I damn sure dont need him now.

I was told I didn't want to start something with him...I told him "I haven't started anything, you did, and I am going to be the one to finish it." His reply was "UH, I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER!"
Ha! "UH, NO, YOU WON'T" Then he hung up on me. Really adult of him. BOO HOO WAHH HAHHH! Wuteva.....

I am done being torn down from where I pulled myself up to from the last time something got in the way of his life. He always has to keep shit stirred up. I'm just not allowing his stirred up shit to affect me anymore. I know who I am loved by, and who I can go to. That doesn't include him.

Such things will never pass my lips, or my fingertips (considering I am typing) again.

Not Anymore..........