What a week!

I have had a very busy week!

Monday was pretty much on an even keel. Not even rememberable really. The rest of the week has been non stop.

From Tuesday's Dumb Ass Police calling escapade, to leaving work that day and going to my daughter's 3rd grade program. That was all about what you want to be when you grow up...my daughter....believe it or not was cast as a cowgirl. Not predictable at all, considering her dad WAS, a true thru and thru redneck back in the day. She was a cute cowgirl tho. But refused to wear her boots.... Carmie and Kalei came with...lol after the program was over, Crystal, one of my employees and I played beauty shop, I dyed my hair so dark brown its almost black...and I highlighted hers....Didn't get home until midnight.

Wednesday, people here were still talking about the episode from the day before, yay....I got to relive everyone elses version of the whole thing......I picked up the girls at school, so I could take them to thier gramma at work...and in the mean time we went to a sewing shop...not really what I thought it was, and thought about going to Just A Buck, then thought better of it...wanted to go into Hancock fabrics, but knew better from the last trip I made in there. At some point last week the girls and I went to Petland just looking around, and since we still had some time to kill we went back in there...we got to play with the birds, and hold the dwarf hamsters, and attempt to pet a gerbil...the skiddish things.....lol, Sierra was in love with the hermit crabs...more because they were painted pretty colors...lol I think I made her feel bad tho, because I forgot a taks test meeting for the parents at her school for the next day, and I had made plans the week before to have Michelle and Kris over for dinner. Told her that we would still get to see each other, but I wouldn't be able to make it to the meeting..She puckered up, of course, was a lil bit upset. She said Ok...I make it to everything else, told her I was so sorry.

Thursday...day at work was alright...met the girls and gramma at CiCi's...didn't eat anything, because I had to go home and cook dinner...we piddled around for nearly an hour, and I had to leave and go home. Got home, got dinner made, Michelle and Kris made it. I am almost sure that is the most that I have heard Kris talk at one setting...which was great...lol, we ate spaghetti, french bread, salad, and Michelle brought the Turtle Brownies which were awesome. Then we played rummy until they had to leave.

(Damn the food and the DP, I had the burps...lol, and I had control over not many of them...and I tried to cover my mouth for some of them. But hell...I'm just glad they took the elevator instead of the other direction, and if I had tried to hold them all, I am pretty sure that I would have exploded at some point....LoL)

Greg said later that he was ALMOST embarrassed by it. I told him, I was sorry...but I really had no control over it...and he knows me..hell I was in my own home anyway....LoL

Sent Michelle a text apologizing about that...and she told me not to be sorry cuz she didn't think anything of it...that they had a blast....well thats good to know!!!! LoL

Today I will be retrieving the girls from school, and they are spendin the weekend with momma. Not quite sure what we will be doing...as its kinda chilly outside, but we will figure something out.

I am glad its friday, I am ready for this week to be over with.

Retarded MUCH??? WTF?!?!?

*Sigh*

Today has been the worst day I have had on the job in over 6 years.

I am sooooo serious.

I get here and get my day started. About 2 hours later, a couple walks thru the door to return a car. They picked it up at another location and I knew that, because it wasn't one of my cars...(the difference between a corporate location and a licensee location).

Anyway, I proceed to check this car in. I notice that the car has been on rent for 13 days, and asked if they had retrieved the return mileage, which they had not, so, wife goes back out and gets it..I enter it and proceed to the next part of the check in. When I get to method of payment, I ask them if they will be leaving it on the card they presented at the time of rental. They say no, we are going to write a check. Well, I can't take a check, so I tell them that. They ask why not, its just as good as a card, or cash. I replied that our company doesn't allow us to take checks, just credit or debit cards and cash. So wife tells husband to give me the credit card. I enter that information, computer asks me to swipe it, which I do. I hit enter. The receipt prints.

I take a look at the receipt, and my jaw about drops. You see, when I am checking in a car, it doesn't give me an option to see what the price is before I check it in. Especially on a one way. Well, the price was 2099.09. I tell the customer, you may want to call the station that you picked the car up from because the amount they charged you for returning it here is pretty exhorbatant (sp).

They asked what the charge was, so I passed over thier copy of the receipt and they looked. Wife says, "THAT'S CRIMINAL". Looking at me like I personally did this to them. What they didn't understand is that I have no control over what the charges are on a one way rental especially when they didn't call ahead of time to get the return station amended. But they didn't care to understand that.

Husband says, you haven't charged an amount to my card yet have you? I said,"Yessir, the price on the paper is what was charged when the vehicle checked in." Wife says, "Give me the keys back, we will just take it back where we got it."

Well, I can't do that either, because the car has already been checked in and I can't give them back the keys without re-renting the vehicle. I tell them this. Also that they really need to call the renting station to get things straightened out, because, without this being my contract, I have no control over the charges, that if it was my contract, I would be more than happy to fix it, but I don't have the authority to do that on this one.

Husband gets on his cell phone and calls the renting station and while he is waiting for someone to answer, he tells wife to call the Tyler Police Dept. I'm thinking "the police dept?" Anyway. He finally get someone on the phone, and proceeds arguing with them, and wife comes over and said they were sending someone out. I'm thinkin, "sending someone out for what??" Next thing I know, the officer here on duty at the airport comes over to the counter asking what the problem is.

The customer tells the officer that I wouldn't tell them how much the charges were going to be before I checked the car in, and that I didn't get his authorization to charge that amount of money to his card. Well....at that point, I am starting to get pretty pissed. But know that I need to try and keep as much composure as possible. I explain to the officer that is not at all what happened. Of course the husband is still trying to feed him a cock and bull story about I am a thief and a criminal and that they wanted something on paper. I suppose so they can try to sue, hell, I'm not sure.

Just listening to all this crap was starting to get to me. Course, having a cop at your counter over a retarded ass issue isn't enough, I have drivers come in from another location to pick up their cars. So they get to listen to all this CRAP, and I couldn't take it anymore...the panic attack set in. The tears started flowing...I couldn't function really, the only thing I can do is close myself up in the back office...and cry... UGH.

I was pretty much hysterical. I didn't know it at this point but one of my neighboring counters had called my service agent and told her to get her ass back up here, something was going down. So she is flying back to the lot...doin like 80 in a 15....lol She flies thru the office door says, "WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED...CHRYSTAL DID SOMEONE HIT YOU?" I said no...she said what happened, I said(thru the blubbering) "I'll tell you later" She said, someone had better tell me what the hell is going on, NOW!" So, the police officer fills her in and then she goes off, because she has been with me long enough to know that I can't do anything about any of it.

Husband walks back towards the counter, officer knows that service agent is nothing if not protective of anyone that she has come to care about. So when he says husband walking towards, he steps out of back office, walks up to him, and tells him, since you asked for it, this is the report number, this is my number, if you have any questions about it call me or the local police dept, but I hope you realize that there is nothing that this girl can do to accomodate anything with it not being her contract, its not her fault.

This MOTHER FUCKER, yes I did say that has the audacity to say, "I know it isn't her fault, I just wanted record of it"

I about came unglued all over again....KNOWS IT WASN'T MY FAULT AND WANTS RECORD OF WHAT? THAT I WAS DOING MY JOB??????????????

Service agent is glaring at him from inside the back office. She said.."Well that sorry son of a bitch, if he knows its not your fault then why in the hell is he being a jackass, he should have the decency to apologize to you!" Well I could still only cry, and I never got an apology.

Now......HOW MANY COPS DO YOU KNOW THAT WOULD COME AND GIVE YOU A HUG AND TRY TO COMFORT YOU IN A SITUATION LIKE THIS??

Well, I want you to know that Officer Swain of the Tyler PD did just that. He knows that I was only doing my job and that this crap was a complete waste of his, and my time, and the crap that I went thru was just freaking ridiculous. He told me that it would be ok, and I know that...

So, when I could finally muster up the words, I told him, I know it will be ok, and I will be fine, its just going to take me some time. Hell of a time for a panic attack...anyone here that has been around me for any length of time knows that I hardly ever handle myself in such a way, I have told people to walk away from my counter or I would call the police on them myself, and I can buck up against a jackass just as hard as they buck at me if not harder...but not today. Not today.

Took another hour to compose myself enough to call my boss and let him know what had transpired with out getting emotional about it.

His one serious question about the whole conversation was..."Why does Tyler, Texas always get all the stupid folks?" Cuz alot of my issues here are really stupid, on the customers part.....or just things that happen here in Tyler, seem to make national news....LoL

He told me he was sorry I had to go thru all of that and hoped that the day turned out better for me....just to keep a copy of the rental agreement and write a statement about what happened..

I seem to be of better sorts now...but I gaurantee there will be an ambien taken, and my ass WILL sleep tonight!


Until next time!.........................

Hire Fire Keep or Let Go.......

I have been doing my job for a long time....so, when you hear the dreaded words, "would you be upset if I applied for the job at your competitors company?" You can pretty much imagine what is going thru my head.

Well, I learned a long time ago, that having hard feelings about such things does no one any good...I don't begrudge anyone doing whats best for them.

So, no, I wouldn't be upset....left in a lurch maybe but not upset. As I said....been doing this for a long time.

The sucky part about the whole situation is.....a few weeks ago, word came down from above my head that we need to find another way to advertise for open positions, as newspaper ads have become much too expensive.

So, I have to go on word of mouth, make fliers, post myspace bulletins. Anything that costs much of nothing. The bad part about that is....even with newspaper ads, I haven't been taking in many apps when I do put them up. Then....once the apps are filled out, the applicant has to pass a background release, which for one position isn't as hard as another. Takes forever to find someone that can pass either of them...for one position it takes weeks of training, for the other, hardly any at all.

Then when I loose someone, I only have to use the people left to cover the spot that is open, then I get ripped for using so many hours when there is really NOTHING that I can do about it....they want to site the bad economy...blah blah blah....Gah..

Well, this is what I am up against lately.. as far as work anyway, for the time being...personally everything is going ok.

But I will leave that for another blog....

It has been a long, long week. I am so worn out...and I still have tonight tomorrow and the weekend to get thru.

Tonight, I am going to the fall festival at my daughters school...they get to dress up in their costumes and I get to make them up. We will run around the school for a couple of hours, then I need to come back up to work and check on my new rental agent and make sure all is ok. Then go home at some point and either try to get things done or fall on the floor asleep....lol,

Tomorrow, I come back to work, I have to go get my kiddos from school and bring them back to my office, and grandma will come pick them up here. Then once things are all taken care of here, I will go home. I am hoping that I will have enought time tonight to make my halloween door hanging for the kiddo's to see when they come trick or treating, if, they come trick or treating...lol

Saturday I have been enlisted to help unload a moving truck with a friend that is moving back from 4 hours away, and that should take a big chunk of the day, and then I have a birthday get together to go to for my friend Amanda.....prolly be late, but I will go....

Sunday, my friend that is moving back, may possibly have had to leave her car where she was living if she can't find a car dolly to haul it...if she can't we will be making the 8 hr total trek there and back.....then I have another work week, and my kids next weekend...so it'll prolly be a month before I get any rest....

I still have alot of pics to post, and blogs to write from before, I just may not get to it for a while....LMAO....but I have good intentions.

So until I make it back, HAVE a WONDERFUL HALLOWEEN!

Check your kid's candy, have a blast....

UGH!!

The last few days have been a pain in the ass for me.. not literally thank god, but well...ya know.

Turns out I have an ear infection in my right ear. I would rather have a tooth drilled without novacaine. These things put me down for a while. I had them really bad when I was little, I had an awful one at 16 in the same ear that put me out of school for a week. I have been carrying some fever with this one..nothing over 100.5 by thermometer, but I have been told I look "rough" or that I really don't look like I feel well. I feel ok, except this pain in the ear..I feel warm/hot to the touch. Then when I check the temp its nearly normal, which is kinda weird.

Before that took hold of me...Sunday I went to Michelle's son Garrett's 4th bday party. Was pretty funny to watch his reaction to his gifts. "MY SPIDERMAN!!! MY CARS!!!" etc. Didn't show any signs of being shy as usual. I think he has found himself...lol Nice to see him break out of that mold. He made out pretty well. I may snag some pics from it from his moms blog or myspace to post here....of course if thats ok with her. LoL Lots of food..an awesome cake...and "The Creature Teacher" who cares for some "exotic pets" which she brought to show the kids.

Not sure that I can remember the names of all of them...but I'm going to try. Chinchilla, Freckled Ghecko (sp), walking stick, Blue Tongued Skink(lizard), there was another bigger lizard that looked like a huge horny toad, but not as round....I can't remember the name of that one. Some sort of python, not a lil one either it was about 5 ft long..non poisonous, no fangs or venom. Pretty cool...there may have been one or 2 more, but I have slept since then. I do remember than when she was done telling them about the animals that she gave Garrett a chance to choose a couple of animals to hold for a picture. He chose the python...which he handle actually pretty well. The other was the Chinchilla, which moved a lil more than he would have liked...I think he liked the snake better...lol

Michelle say's, "Oh my god, my son is holding a snake!!! He's givin me a heart attack!" Was too cute tho. Kids had fun jumpin around in the bouncy house..we all visited for a bit...and went home.

My night didn't end there tho...I ended up going over to Amanda's and playing some Rock Band 2....oh yeah...I am addicted. I love the guitars, need to get more practicing on the drums...hardly ever sing...although, I would probably do fine...kinda the stage fright thing...lol Went home after Greg went to work, he stopped by Amanda's on the way out so I could tell him bye and give him a kiss...and I nearly fell out of the truck, his is 3 inches taller off the ground than mine.

Anyway...made it home and went to bed.

Monday I went to the Dr and she prescribed me some antibios for my ear and also some drops for the pain. The drops I had to wait an extra day for due to the fact that there is a new law in place when the pharmacy doesn't have any brand medication and the generics are not "A or B rated" they actually have to call and have the Dr verify that it is ok to give a generic form....How retarded is that? Even tho, right there on the prescription it says "generic substituion is permitted" Blah...

I finally got the drops yesterday....and hopefully they will start doing the job they are supposed to. As well as the antibiotics. The right side of my face around my ear is pretty puffy, somewhat swollen. So ya...working is not as much fun as it normally is. LoL.

Tuesday after picking up the drops I went home, put on some comfortable clothes, and laid down in bed next to my husband....he is working overnights. Well, it didnt take long for me to drift off to sleep..that was 5pm, and I didn't get up until almost 9. So, then my normal sleep schedule was off.

I still made it to work this morning. I'll be pickin up the lil darlin's at school today. I will have them this weekend....would like to go to Oklahoma with the rest of the family...don't know if I will have the gas money tho. Oh well...we shall see.

I'll get back to this later. LoL

Hee Hee!!

BURPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!! Ah!!!! Much betta!!

Update!!!!

Ok, just wanted to let ya know that I posted some pics into my last blog. Take a lookie. I still have to write a blog about my daughters bday, but I have to finish transferring the pics from one freakin mem card to another, because the new on that I bought does not get recognized by my computer for some reason...

Sucks, but it is what it is right? So when I have the time to get that done....lol

But for now, I have to start closing my day here, so I can go pick the girls up at school.

Later!!!!!

Where does the time go? Hell if I know....LMAO

Well it was reallllllly a busy weekend.

I had the kiddos, and Friday night my ex MIL stayed with us, because her car was broke down, and I live close to her work. I had to work a lil late so the plan was that my Amanda, (sister from another world *thats a good thing y'all*) would pick the girls up from Shirley at work, and as soon as I got in, I would go grab them from her. That I did.

The when Shirley got off work, the girls and I went and picked her up, came back home. She ate, the girls and she were off to bed, and I cleaned up a lil bit of the house. From there I went to bed..

This was my first night using a CPAP. I told you I have alot that I want to say, I just haven't had the time to do it....still really don't, so I will short version as much as possible...and then if ya have any questions just ask.

I have been diagnosed with sleep apnea...so, I am on a 2 week trial with a CPAP. I still haven't got the settings on it quite right...still working on that...I will wake in the middle of the night and my nasal passages are pretty dry..the first couple of nights i took it off on purpose. Lastnight, I intended on keeping it on all night...I don't remember taking it off, but either I did, or, moving around in my sleep caused it to come off, it was on the floor this morning when I got up. Takes a bit of getting used to.

Anyway...so back to Friday, I was off to bed....I don't know what time it was when Greg got home, it was after midnight...I think actually seeing me with that thing on kept him awake, thank god mine isn't a full mask, right? He was constantly checking on me.

On to Saturday, we all had to get up early. There were 4 of us in the house that needed to get baths, and we had to take Shirley to work, and then it was off to the Chandler Pow Wow. This is a parade that the whole community pretty much participates in. I have attended faithfully since Kayla was in Kindergarten because they are on a float EVERY year! Some times they dress up for it, sometimes they don't...but each grade has a float or at least both elementary's do... Greg went again this year...this is the second year in a row that he has made it and I am proud of him. Considering he drove home from Mineral Well's at the buttcrack of midnight. I am sure he didn't want to but I am sure that the girls enjoyed it. We actually got pretty good pics of them this year...I am usually always on the opposite side of the road to get a pic of Sierra...lol, this year we weren't...and the float that KK was on was actually low enough it didn't matter so, we got good ones of her too.

Yeah, I could kick Greg square in his ass for this picture...knowin I was gettin aggrevated at the slow ass folks taking their time dropping their kids off....lol

Thats my Sierra on the 3rd grade float. At least she was smiling in this one....lol. The first couple of years she didn't.

Greg took this one, pretty good considering he really couldn't see what was in the view finder...lol

She's just cheesin' in this one.

This would be the ambulance that the parade had to make room for on the road....right in the middle of it too.. Thats a first since I have attended this thing.

Kayla is the one in the striped shirt...with the short hair...lol

We finally got her to look at us after losing our voices trying...lol

I had to....lol, this is a strange picture to be here....this is my old landlord, he was awfully good to us. I said Hey Jim! Smile! looked at me like I was nuts, I said...I took your picture...he said, "Why?" He is the the city manager there...and he was working security/expediting at the Pow Wow.


I saw a friend of mine that I have not seen in person for a while. We have conversed on myspace for the last year or so, just have got together. I went to High School with her, we worked together when my kids were little bitty...way before her son was born. I saw Lindsey across the street from me. So Greg and I walked over and I scared the crap outta her.. she was sitting on the ground and I came up behind her and put my hands on her shoulder...she turned around and looked like...HUH? OH HEY!!!! I haven't seen you in forever!!!!

She introduced me to Shawn, her other half, and I introduced her to Greg. She actually remembers meeting him a long time ago. Greg doesn't remember that at all...of course Greg needs to take his Gingko....I can't remember when it happened, but she does. Ok...haha. Anyway. She told me that she and Shawn were getting married in November. I know this has been a long time coming for her. She has come so far from before her son was born, and I am very proud of her. She has been going to school, or did anyway, and has been a Counselor for the last couple of years, and now she is getting her teaching certification. That is just awesome. She told me her son was on a church float. LiL toot just turned 4, and is freakin adorable. Blondie boy. His name is Luke. Told her to let me know what float he was on so I could get a pic of him. She said I sure will...I can't believe I forgot my camera....so, now, I will have to up load that pic along with the others to myspace and link them to her. As soon as I have the time anyway. She and I are linked in other ways too. Luke's father and my ex husband that is all I am going to say about that. Because that is all that needs said....LoL
Ok, this is Lindsey's son Luke. He is the lil blondie with the bucket under the word United. I will probably crop that before I put it on myspace just so it really shows just him.

Have I ever told you how outgoing my oldest daughter is? No? Well...she is. She is 100 times more scared of bugs than she is people. She LOVES to sing...could use a bit of training but she loves to sing. In the shower, to herself, in the car, to the tune of the radio station inside her head. She loves to sing in public. I suppose thats my fault. I love to sing too. BUT....to get up in front of a crowd and do it, all by myself? You are talking terrified to the point of p'ing myself. Her?? Oh, no! Anything singing related she is in it. Festivals at school...Church...and yes...the talent show at the Pow Wow. She didn't get to this year, we didn't have the time for that. But last year, the one year I didn't get to stay with the girls....she gets up and sings her lil heart out in front of at least a thousand people. My friend Tammy called me on her cell as she was up there singing....and I listened...tore me up that I couldn't have stayed longer and seen it.

But last year I signed her up to be able to do "Bear Radio" The school radio station. So at fall festival last year, she got to do a lil spot announcing. She got to do the same thing at the Pow Wow this year.

I am just in awe of my child. Now if I could both of them to clean their rooms and brush their teeth everyday.. that would be AWESOME!!!

Saturday evening, my downstairs neighbor, pretty much a second mother to me.....has what she calls "Rib Fest" and oh boy! She weren't kiddin....ribs with bbq sauce, without RACKS AND RACKS OF THEM...bbq chicken legs, country style ribs, the pkg of pork grillers that I had in my freezer... corn on the cob, potato salad, oriental salad, peach cobbler, chocolate pie, and BANANA PUDDING!!! You have to know that I am allergic to bananas, but, if there is banana puddin....I am taking that risk (after taking benedryl of course)......I was so happily miserable. LoL

Sunday......We moved around half of the house. Just so I could move my computer desk in the livingroom. If you have ever seen it, it is big ol' mutha fudger. LoL....takes up alot of room, so, we had to basically move our livingroom entirely around. OMG, you shoulda seen all the damn paper work that came out of that desk. I covered my entire bed.. and about half the floor on the other side of it...course that wasn't ALLLL paperwork. LoL.

Greg helped me get all the components hooked back up and the couch and TV moved, then he had to leave for Dallas. So I got stuck having to put all the stuff up.. which I am not finished with. I also aquired another dresser lastnight. Unfortunately the only place I had open to put it was in my room. Where we had moved the desk from. It needs to be in the kids room, because 2 of them are falling apart. But I will leave that for another day. I was pretty much too tired to even get online. I still have alot to do....just gotta get to it.

Ok, I gotta get the Hell offa here so I can go home....look forward to pics once I can get them loaded.....I'm sure I am not done with this thing yet....lol

Geez.......

More shit to say, no time to type it.....that freakin sucks....I need a lil slow down time!!!!!!

Monster Blog...Not so much...lol

I don't have time for the monster blog tonight, but I want to at least get started on something...lol

So the Saturday before last, my daughters with me...they decide they want thier hair cut. So off to Snip It's we went. They love that place..they can play games or watch a movie while getting thier hair cut. My girls actually like short do's, unlike me. But.. they are the ones who have to mess with it.

I on the other hand have hair that is almost down to my waist when its straight anyway, I have naturally curly hair. Or, it was anway, before I started trimming off the ends of it. So now it is 2 to 3 inches shorter than that.

Anyway, they girls loved thier new do's...so I figured I would at least get those pics up tonight..and hope that I can get the rest of pics from that weekend up maybe tomorrow. So, here are the new do's! Unfortunately I don't have before pics, but I had some of them very recently that I posted previously.

The first two are Kayla front and back and the second two are Sierra front and back.....LoL.. Enjoy!!








Here's to hoping I have more time for blogging tomorrow!

Where the HECK have I been???

OMG....It's been so busy!!!!

Smack my hand!!

Shame on me...

You know me, when I don't blog for this long....there will be a huge blog upcoming....lol

As soon as I can find the time to relax and do it...lol, which is not right now...It is going to be a very busy day....lots of reservations, and IT'S FREAKIN' MONDAY!!! Ya know how I feel about that!!!

Soon.....I promise...

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I am sooooooooooo glad it is Friday, this has been an extraordinarly tough week!

But the good thing is...I survived it! And I live to tell the tale~

I have pretty much already blogged about all the stuff that has gone on in the last week. So I really don't need to go over it again, in a new blog or in my head for that matter.

The last thing I need is another headache.

I want to have a wonderful weekend with my daughters, hopefully get to spend some time with a friend, maybe dress the girls up and take them somewhere outdoors that I can take some neat pictures of them...I want to spend some real quality time with them.

Anyone got any ideas? I am open to suggestions...lol

Gotta get back to work, maybe I will get to check in later.

Y'all have a wonderful Friday, Saturday and Sunday!!

My Brain!!!

I swear when I use my brain to much, it goes on explosive overload! I mean, seriously! Today was a long day at work, I suppose that we got alot accomplished, but I was there much later than normal. For some reason, the freaking enter button is not working....that really bites! Ok, well, anyway. So, I get home. I check my mail. There is this cute lil card in there....from a very special person. And the card is special as well, because it was MADE, just for me. With loving care, and a crafty hand, and alot of thought. It really meant alot. And I realllllllllllllly appreciated it and truthfully I needed it. In more ways that one, so, to you my Chelle. I thank you..... Geez I wish the freakin' enter button was working! But it isn't so, I move on...... I have been in an off and on again relationship with my sperm donor and his wife since I was 17. And lately there has been no communication between us, on purpose on my part, because my sperm donor can't deal with life unless it revolves around him. The unfortunate thing about it is, because of his actions, he has alienated not only himself, but his wife as well, from my daughters. The reason for that is, I can't have anything to do with her, without having something to do with him, and vice versa. I received a call from his wife late on the evening of my birthday. To which I hit the ignore button, sending her call to voicemail....she wished me a happy birthday. I wonder why she waited until that late at night to call, actually frankly I am surprised she called at all. Then lastnight as I was on the other side of my apartment putting clothes in the dryer, she evidently called me and I didn't hear the phone, so, again it went to voicemail. She asked me to call her and said that she would be up for a while. Of course, again, I ignored it. Tonight when I get home, I have an email from her in my inbox. It said, "Do you have plans for Kayla this Saturday? I would like to take her on a hike at the lake. I know Sierra doesn't like that kinda thing and wants to be with you. I wanted to ask you before I said anything to her." To which I replied, "Yes, I do have plans for both of the girls and myself as it is my weekend. So, no, don't say anything to her." Truthfully, I just don't get it. If you want to see your grandkids, why would you want to plan to do something with just one? Secondly, as far as I am concerned, neither one of them will have anything to do with my girls if I have anything to say about it....and as far as that goes, if I did allow them to see them, it would be both of them and not just one. I will not have one daughter be treated as less that the other because they are not....and I will not have one of my kids not feel as important as the other. I mean....GEEZ! Why should the child have to be the parent here??? Do you understand where I am coming from? All of this coupled with the fact that I think I had my hair pulled up way too tight, and using my brain to compute multiples of 5's playing domino's with my downstairs neighbor.........I believe helped cause a stress/tension/cluster/migraine headache. I popped an excedrin migraine 2 hours ago, and my head hasn't even started to ease up.... I really needed to get this out, if for nothing else than to release a little steam, and hopefully let my brain rest.....and now, I believe I am going to drag my happy ass out of this chair and put it to bed. 6am comes way to early if you are like me and can get to sleep ok, but just can't stay that way. Usually, I am looking at the clock, tossing and turning or getting up to pee every 30 mins to an hour....I truthfully don't believe I have had a full nights sleep in....hell I can't remember when! So, wish me luck! And maybe I will have a much better head on my shoulders in the morning!!!!!!

WHO???

OMG....lol, so I am at work today and I look up to see this guy walking past my counter. I look down...I thought, wait a minute. I recognize that nose! Look back up and OMG!

It was freakin HENRY WINKLER!!! I came around the counter and looked outside where he went, he got in a limo and off he went!! He didn't give anyone time to distract him.

But....Hello!! It was The FONZ! I don't know bout you but I grew up on Happy Days reruns....lol

Just thought it was worth blogging about!

Some Pic's During Summer '08

There was a week that I had the girls before school started, so, they went to work with me...They had fun. LoL Ok, I did too....just don't pay attn to the my double chin in the pics I am in...K? k!




Sweet face
Goofy Girl

Huh?
Not quite payin attn...
That's a lil bit betta! LoL
My Counter Heads....lol

Boo's hiding place... ;D

Monday's......ugh.....

Geez. Have I ever mentioned how I hate Monday's? No? Well guess what? I hate Monday's.

This is pretty much the busiest day at work, where, it pretty much takes my whole shift and sometimes longer to just be able to know if all reservations will be covered or not. That pretty much sucks. What sucks worse is when the car washer from the day before, has enough to cover at least the first flight of reservations.....but before you can even get the office good and open, you have more than double the cars reserved for the first flight in....OY!

Monday's are the big bad mofo that you don't wanna meet in a dark alley, where most of your reservations are for our "select" customers that what what we don't have to start with, you also get the bitchy whiney customers that want you to chrome toasty a vehicle straight out of your ass without so much as a noise....BLAH!

The good thing is I have hired another part time car washer for W-Sun, and that should be a major help. Now I just have to hire a part time rental agent to take my W-F evening shift and get that person trained. But I seriously think that I am going to train everyone I hire to work counter just in case the need arises. Especially since it is a small operation, there should be no reason why it can't be done.

Hopefully the rest of the week will run more smoothly. I can only hope.

I believe I am about to go back and edit some pics into some older posts so, y'all make sure and scroll down to see any!

Hope your Monday was much betta than mine!!!!

*Sigh*

Oh, what a lazy day.

I have done some laundry, picked up some of the house....and played jewel quest until my eyes crossed.

I have not, however stepped foot outside today. I haven't been answering the phone except for my daughters and my hubby's texts.

Lastnight my downstairs neighbor treated me and her best friend Debi to a birthday dinner at Carino's, Amanda was there too..Amanda is my neighbors daughter, who is 2 years older than I am. We acted goofy the whole dinner...yanno, the whole "MOM, she's lookin' at me, or tryin to touch me." bit. Ha Ha...we even had our chewing gum taken away for popping bubbles. We had a blast anyway....my 2 italian margarita's, and Amanda's 2 strawberry lemonades and Debi's 2 bellini's later, while stuffing ourselves with food. Of course we are all miserable by the time we made it to the van for the ride home...we actually took food home with us...ain't that some poo?

Normally I can drink way more than 2 of something before I am felling that "good". But oh boy was I loopy...I was trying to get out of the van when we got back when Amanda started tickling me. Bad thing to do, I was all, "STOP!!! Imma pee on myself!!" When I fell up against Barbara's seat and almost scared the crap outta her...I had to roll out of the vehicle.

Finally got upstairs and stumbled to the couch and put my birthday present, purse and other stuff down. Took me a few mins to remember where my clothes I wanted to wear to bed were. Then the headache (cough-hangover) started to kick in and I'm like....Imma layin to bed..ya, I couldn't talk right. I guess I fell asleep ok, but I didn't realize I kicked Greg in my sleep....LoL

Fergot to take an ibuprofen before bed, bad thing...I wouldn't have felt so bad this morning if I had. Oh well, live and learn. Eventually the hangover subsided and Greg left for work, not sure if he will be able to make it home in the next 3 weeks. I can't complain, he has been home more this year that any other. Which really has been nice.

All in all I guess the day was good. Tried to keep from doing anything stressful, not quite sure if totally succeeded at it, but.....

It's all good!

Monster Blog Much???? ;D

Huh? Are you serious? OMG, I am sooooooo tired today.

Well, I will try.

I believe my last actual blog was on Sep 11....so, lets start with:

Sep 12:

Pretty much like any other Friday, to work by 8am, pick up the kids by 5, go home, to find my husband and his kids just getting home. Which was nice. Cook something, We watch TV for a while. Make sure the kids all get a bath...all FOUR of them...Get them to bed at a decent hour. Then go back to the TV and turn on the Weather Channel to check on Hurricane Ike, looming in the Gulf Of Mexico on a path straight for the Texas Coast. Go to bed, TRY to sleep...hmmmm. I dunno...

Sep 13:

The TV turns itself on at 610 am...lol. Well, it scared the shit out of me. Got up and changed it to the Weather Channel to check the status of the hurrican which has made landfall on Galveston Island at around 2:10 am, and had been on land for 4 hours already. Saturday was a very wet, windy day.. trees blowing to and fro in all different directions, rain changing its direction in front of your eyes. We got VERY lucky, alot of people lost power for days on end, we only had ours flicker twice about noon, and then it went out about 1130 pm for a total of 2 mins. The storm was headed straight up HWY 69 north, towards Tyler, and I live a block off of it. So needless to say, I was kind of anxious because we had all 4 kids there, we had heard a few transformers blow, thats a pretty eerie sound. The girls got scared, the boy laughed at them....thats pretty freakin' normal tho. Roughest weather we have had for a while...there were some trees uprooted in the area, but as far as I am aware, fairly minimal damage. The Lake Palestine area, is another story.

Sep 14:

MY BIRTHDAY!! No, not all that excited, I am 31 now, but I will continue to say 29 with 2 years experience until I am comfortable with it....lol My kiddos and husband left in the morning while I was asleep and got donut holes, donuts, and a birthday cake...they chose a big one...and had the lady at the bakery put Happy Birthday Greg and Chrystal on it. Because that way they wouldn't have to go buy one for his....Haha. The girls picked white roses off of the bush outside, because they know its my favorite flower, they made me homemade cards, (SOOOO SWEET) Greg bought me a card, that said something to the effect of, "just remember 2 things" "Happy Birthday, and I love you, Greg.....AWWWWWWW. My brother invited us over and made me a birthday dinner, bbq..yummy. I am going to have to scan his card, and edit this post so you can see what it looked like....he is freakin' silly but I love the hell out of him.

As far as the office on Sunday, we had some Red Cross reservations drop on us. OH JOY!!!! Well, yes and no anyway. After Katrina in '05, we had a crap load of fleet out to them, over half of my fleet. For like 3 mos. Excellent revenue, but...they only wrecked or damaged like a third of them....As of Sunday, we have done about 8 Red Cross rentals, and already have the windshield busted out of one of them and fender damage on it. OHH...I can't wait....I will be loading pics of that and editing them in here too....lol

Sep 15:

God I hate Mondays....especially knowing that alot of cars were still on rent and what Mondays reservations tend to run. I opened this day with like 2 cars that I could use. So needless to say, I was already going to be only having one car at the end of the night as of opening, so I had to pilfer some cars from our GGG office.. I pilfered 9 of them...and guess what? I had so many reservations add to me that.........

OH! BTW, Greg took me out for a birthday dinner at Carino's too!!! I love that place!

Sep 16:

I opened with only 2 cars again......Ya!!! Can you believe that shit???? The more cars I got the more we had less....haha....it's not all bad tho, good for utilization, but not good running my service agent ragged. Oh boy...every time she came in, I was having to tell her that we had add ons and eventually she told me to tell thim to quit that shit because she had had enough!!! Wish I could have, but unfortunately thats not my call and not the name of the game....Yanno? Also this day, someone everyone that works in the building had a dislike of, quit! YAY!!!!! And blamed everything that went wrong on someone else, because OMG, she can do no wrong, and don't accuse her because she is good at pulling stories straight out of her ass and making her manager believe that she was the best one for the job.....OY BOY did she have the wool pulled over her eyes, she thought this lady was her friend...and got stabbed straight in the back....

The funny thing is she was one of my employees first...but I didn't pull any punches with her. I didn't give in to all of the bull shit story...she still couldn't do simple things that required being done on a daily basis without calling me after 10 mos....and had the nerve to accuse me of stealing HER commission when she basically stuck her nose up at a customer and myself because she didn't want to do a manual contract one day when our system went down. Well it wasn't like she didn't know how to do them, because she did. So she just stood there looking at the customer like "DUH" I am not going to make a customer wait...I grabbed a pen and a contract....wrote all of the info in, asked if she wanted any additional coverage, which she took all of. Then asked her if she wanted the Fuel Service Option...which she also took. I called for authorization on the credit card and had our customer on her way in 5 minutes. You don't make a customer wait when they are your bread and butter. When the customer walked away from the counter I turned and looked at her...She at the top of her lungs said "I was going to do that!"....told her well...if you were going to, why didn't you hop to it...you were in no hurry to get started, I prefer my customers not have to wait...she actually suggested that I should put the rental in the computer under her number and give her credit for the commission...

UM...NO! I work hard for every extra penny I make..you didn't do the contract, you didn't ask the customer anything...I did all that. Didn't see you butting in asking me if you could take over...needless to say she quit me soon after, and wrote a scathing 5 page letter to my boss, telling him the exact opposite of everything that I did...And you see I am still doing my job 4 years later, my boss also saw thru her stinky smoke screen. She is yet again out of a job.

Oh well, sae lah vee! Wutev..... haha. Things are so much calmer here!

Sep 17:

Today is my Greg's Birthday....the big ol' 36. I love him so. He is the best thing that has happened to me besides my kids..even if he does tend to piss me off at times. Whats a relationship with out a little tension.. Hee Hee!

I had to work of course, but got out a lil bit early for a Dr's visit. Greg went with me...Well, she seems to think that I may have sleep apnea...oh, freakin lovely joy. Can't afford a sleep study tho. So. She also swithche around about half of my meds, so, that oughta take a bit of getting used to..

I love my doctor, she is young...well 36. Very attentive, a very soothing voice...very understanding. She walked in the room and what I saw first was a bulging belly...I said....OHHHHH I had no idea you were having a baby!!!!! She said, weren't you just in here last month? I said well, ya, but, you really weren't showing, or were hiding it very well...Greg asked her if it was her first child, she said well...yes, but there is 2 in there, looked at me and said "Yes, twins!!!!" I was all....Good Luck!

Greg liked her so much that he actually made an appt to get in with her. Weird thing was we were told that she wasn't taking any new patients, but she gave her permission. Greg had no problems telling me that my last Dr was a quack...well, I knew that but he was convenient....well, now, my doctors office is almost literally right across the street....haha! YAY!!

Sep 18:

What can I say....was a pretty ok day...as ok days go, weren't hurting as much for cars, day went by ok, and the next thing I know, I am in my truck, on the way to see my baby girls. They are soooooo freakin cute...I don't care what anyone says.

We spent the evening redecorating mum's for the homecoming pep rally, the football team is in a bigger district now, so they wanted to get the homecoming out of the way before the district games started. They usually don't do that until October sometime...Oh well, my kiddos talked me in to redecorating my oldest daughters mum from last year, which was quite big for her...(not for me tho...lol) and wearing it to the pep rally, we already worked out the details on that, I would work the night shift so I could go to the pep rally in the morning.

Sep 19:

So I wear this mum...I almost felt like an idiot but in the end I got used to it...my girls wanted me to wear it, so I should and that was that...




My Kayla Girl She is now a 5th grader!




My Sierra Bear.....in 3rd grade!


Momma & Sierra Bear (Look at those steel blue eyes!!)

I didn't get the chance to get a pic of Kayla and myself as she had to walk across the field and sit over on the other bleachers, maybe next time tho!

Now don't even get me started on the stupid teachers. I almost had the same issue with my youngest's teacher last year....telling me that my daughter couldn't come and sit with me...well...I told her to come to me, my daughter was taught to mind me, and mind me she did...to which her teacher actually came down and grabbed my daughter by the arm and proceeded to take her back up the bleachers. I am like "what do you think you are doing??" She says "she has to sit with her class, she came with us she is staying with us."

Ummm..EXCUSE ME??? I got ugly, I called her teacher down to me, and told her in a stern voice and in no uncertain terms that I drove all the way here to be here with her for this, and I was going to be damned if she thought that she was going to take that away from my daughter and I. Then asked her just exactly when the school district became my childs parent? To which she walked off and got the principal...and walked back over to me. Principal tells me, I am sorry Mrs. L....Sierra has to sit with her class...so I told her ok, if he has to sit with her class, then her teacher better make room for my big ass up there with her class, or she would be sitting with me like it or not. Then if you don't like it, tough, I will take her, walk over to the other side of the football field, get her sister from the intermediate school seats and we would all leave the grounds and neither one of them better be counted absent. I will be damned if someone is going to tell me where my child can be when I am present. After all, I am the parent.

Well, I started to get the same song and dance this morning to which I told her new teacher that she didn't want to go there with me, that it went there last year, I point blank said either you make room for me to sit with her and her class or we would be finding our own seats, like it or not. You can get the principal if you want to, but it would turn ugly yet once again. She told me if it turned out that there wasn't enough room for all the kids that I would have to move, and I told her, well, if there isn't enough room for the kids then neither my daughter or myself would be sitting there. So, just keep on pressing the issue. I know how to exercise my rights. Ain't afraid to go to the school board, or even further than that. Needless to say, she shut her mouth, made room for me and sat there with her and her class.

At some point while I was taking pictures of the events at the pep rally my daughter pinned her mum on my sleeve...didn't even realize it, so I ended up wearing 2 mums...lol Is ok tho...I was prolly one of the only moms that showed that much school spirit...

Afterwards I had to stop by the dealership to have a part that had been ordered for my truck installed, went to lunch with my husband, and then came to work.


While at work, I wait for a tow truck to bring one of my cars in as it is undriveable. Ya...Engine runs fine but you can't drive it, and I will show you why. So here goes!






And just who was it that we rented this car to?? Take at the pic below, there are 2 recognizable words on there....c'mon now, don't tell me that you can't figure it out!!!!!




Yeah! Whats even better is that the incident happened around noon and the lady that was driving said that she didn't see that the right side of the swing arm gate wasn't completely open. So either she was yakkin on the cell, or really not paying attention and going way the hell to fast, or like the tow driver said "This lady is old enough to fart dust!" So nice of that tow driver!!

No, It hasn't taken me 7 hours to write this, I got here at 2pm, and it is now 9:32 pm...I just happened to have got all of my paperwork done in a timely manner, I am only going to be here until 9:45 pm.

Although after the long day I have had I am so tired that I have called my husband to come pick me up from work, I am afraid that I could fall asleep on the way home. Better not to take that chance. I have enough trouble staying asleep at home...if I get quiet and still enough, I fall asleep anywhere, hence why my Dr things I may have sleep apnea...haha...


Ok, now that most of you have not made it thru reading every word of this "monster blog", I think I am going to close for the night.....and hopefully I won't go for another week before blogging again, for the reader's sake....lol

Have a wonderful weekend!!!!!!

So MUCH!!!

I haven't blogged in a week, so, I most likely have a monster blog incoming in the next couple of days. I haven't got the time right now to actually sit and put all my thoughts down.

BUSY BUSY BUSY....

GAWD! It has been a reallllllllllly stressful week!

Ok, be back when I have the time to blog the day away!!

Bringing a family member home....

Oh...I'll probably be thought a retard after this post, so, I suppose a retard I shall be.

When we moved to our apartment 2 years ago, I gave my parakeet to my daughters. This was my Sunshine bird (cuz she is yellow, y'all), she was also my birdy bitch..she came by the nickname honestly.

Well, just after Christmas this year, my girls, thier grandmother and I took the girls shopping with the gift cards they received from family members. We decided to go to Petland, Sierra was curious about getting some fish. Well, I was standing at the bird cages, and this parakeet caught my eye...just this one out of a cage of like 20 of them. I was being stared at...or, watched anyway...lol

So, I said...hell with it, I am buying that bird. And I did. Was blue, therefore I named her Sky.

Recently, she passed away. She was fine before I went to bed. When I woke up the next morning to check her food and water, she was on the bottom of the cage. Sigh..even tho I had only had her for just shy of 7 mos. It devastated me. She had become part of the family. I am sure that when I told people about it, they were thinking...its just a damn bird...well...I did too, to an extent. I couldn't believe that this sweet, skitzy sky blue bird would have that kind of an impact on me. But it did.

Remember I said that I have given my Sunshine bird to my girls. Well this bird is tough y'all....even tho she has been out of my home for the past 2 years she is still part of the family. My daughters now have a cat a piece. The cats are about 6 mos old...the bird however is anchient...or, well if you counted her age in dog years she is...lol, this bird is about 11 years old...she has been a part of my family for 5 years. She was owned by a friends mother who had her for at least 5 years, her daughter owned the bird before that for I am not sure how long.

Here is why Sunshine is coming back home with me. Yesterday morning my youngest daughter calls me before school. As she does every morning. After her ritual greeting, she says..."Guess what Smoky did this morning mom!" (Her cat) I said "What's that hun?" "She tried to eat Sunshine!" Oh! I think she thought it was a little bit amusing, until she told me how the cat came about trying to eat the bird.

Now you have to understand that the bird cage is at the top of an entertainment center that stands between 5 and 6 feet tall. This lil cat somehow found a way up to the cage, figured out how to get her nose under the door of the cage, and had her body halfway in the cage trying to get Sunshine. I can now understand how it made my daughter giggle. That had to have been hilarious to catch the cat halfway inside the cage trying to eat the bird.

Needless to say, I don't want to lose another bird, so I asked the her if she wanted me to bring Sunshine back home to Momma's. She asked her Grandma first, and Grandma said that was between myself and the girls, so, both the girls agreed that I would bring her home.

So when I go out there today, I will be bringing her back. Will be nice to have a little noise in the house other than the a/c and tv.

Good Mornin' Momma!

Every morning since school started this year, my daughters have called me every morning as they wait for the bus to pick them up at grandma's house.

Good Mornin' Momma they say...the bus will be here in 13 mins. Or 4 mins, however long they have left before the bus gets there. I love you, have a good day! Huggie Huggie Kissie Kissie Smoochie Smoochie MUAH MUAH!.....just like that! Kind of like my second alarm....lol. (Some morning's I am really thankful for it HaHa)

Then I can expect a call from them as soon as they get home from school and again right before bed. They haven't missed a beat yet....although you can definitely tell the difference between morning and bed time.

Oy! Last night they were screaming at each other while on the phone with me. The funny thing is, Grandma is much more patient with them than I am, I on the other hand am the one that gets called when they get out of control. And considering that I am not the Primary Conservator in our custody case (not by choice, long drawn out story, not gonna air that here) , it is almost that much more amusing.

I can be in Oklahoma visiting my mother and either their father or his mom, will call..."You really need to talk to the girls, they are not respecting us, they are talking back, and not minding."

REALLY??? I mean REALLY? I am all well...have you busted their butts? No? Well why not? The answer I get dumbfounds me.."I hate to spank them, I don't want them to hate me" That answer of course came from their dad. Then I have to spend 20 mins a piece telling each of them the same thing. "Do not let me hear that you haven't been minding, being disrespectful, and talking back to Grandma or Dad, because if I hear it, whether or not you have already been disciplined, you will be again when I see you. Do you understand?" Yes ma'am "Do you promise Mom that you will not do what I just said?" Yes ma'am " What did I just ask you not to do? I want you to tell me." They repeat... "Ok, now, you realize you just made me a promise?" Yes ma'am "What is a promise?" Keeping your word. "That's right, and if you don't keep your word, what does that mean?" That we can't be trusted to keep a promise "That is right...I knew you were smart..now, don't break your promise, because that also means momma will be disappointed in you." Yes ma'am.

Oh...I get it...Make momma the bad parent, the one that has to get on to them, the one that disciplines them...are ya thinkin' that's gonna make them hate me? Don't get me wrong, grandma will discipline and spank if she has to, she just chooses to wait until it is her last resort, then I am called crying because, grandma is being mean....LoL

I happen to think that (ha...as I type this, I can hear my mother saying it) boundaries should be set. I believe it helps teach them responsibility and respect. When I was pregnant with my oldest, I made my decision on discipline. I wasn't against spanking, but if I had to resort to it, I would do it with something other than my hand. I would rather them be scared of an object as opposed to me. Most likely a wooden spoon or similar.

I still believe that way. The difference now is, they know where my line is, and when they get close to it.....they get the "Momma Look". Whereas, Grandma and daddy have no clue how to get them to behave the way I can. They know that if they cross my boundary, it means even if I am on the phone with them, I will get them one way or another, if that means grounding them from xbox, internet, tv, or tearin' up the tushie....they are aware that I will not put up with that kind of behavior.

My girls for the most part are very well behaved. They do have their moments, let me tell you. But all in all I am very proud of the young ladies they have turned out to be. We do like to cut up and have fun together. I know all the yes ma'ams in the paragraph above must seem like I am hard on them..or my brother who was listening to the conversation does. He has a different parenting style. Anyway, let me clarify. I don't always make them say yes ma'am to me. But, if I am having a serious discussion with them like the one above, I want to know that they understand what I am telling them. And a respectful acknowledgement goes a long way.

Told my brother, I realize that we parent differently, (because he asked me why I make them say it.) I don't knock your way, and don't want mine knocked either. I told him the same as the prior paragraph. Discussion is one thing. I told him, you have to realize that my situation is different than yours, as I don't have "primary custody". The other end of the stick is, that their dad is hardly around, and grandma takes care of them for the most part. So, if dad isn't going to be a real parental figure, then someone has to be. Yanno, for being the non custodial parent, (that doesn't mean that I have no custody rights, we have joint, he is just primary and I can't afford an attorney to modify the custody agreement) I see our children more often than he, and being a part of my girls life, not just when they are good, but when they need correcting as well, I am more than proud to call myself their mom.

Every time I hear their voices, or see their faces, and both of their big bright blue eyes, I know that I couldn't go back and change any of the past if I had that chance. They are my world. I just hope that when they become parents, they can look back and say something like. "My mom was strong, she guided us down the right path, and helped us be the people we are."

I may never get to hear it, but I know that the way you choose to bring your kids up, in what ever situation, is important.

I realize this blog is kind of all over the place but...I write it as I feel it...lol

I hope when I am old and gray, that my girls will still pick up the phone every morning and say, "Good Mornin' Momma!...I love you, have a good day! Huggie Huggie Kissie Kissie Smoochie Smoochie MUAH MUAH!".....just like that!

No Father For Me...Anymore..

I am not doing this anymore.

I am not going to let him get to me ANYMORE!!!

I have not been his little girl for a long time, hell, even when I was a little girl I wasn't his. My parents divorced before my first birthday, I don't even remember seeing my dad for the first time until I was 8. For all of about an hour. Not again until I was 10, for about 2 hours. Then not again until I was 13 and way too much for my mom to handle. I was dubbed the Teenager From Hell. This is when I came to live with him.

I am not saying that I made the right choices then, I'm not even saying that the choice that I made recently is right, and I am not asking anyone to agree with me because I don't care how other people see it. They didn't live my life.

About the only time I hear from my FATHER...yes I said father not dad. There is a difference in the two. You have to earn the respect to be called dad. Any male can be a father, it takes a special one to be a DAD. But I digress. The only time I hear from him is when he wants something, and only if it suits his lifestyle. If something gets in the way of that, anything, he pulls this sort of shit.

Well, I am here to tell you, I won't stand for it anymore. I don't have to and wont go into detail about what was said. Or at least the majority of it.

I will tell you that my answers didn't suit what he wanted I was told "Don't talk to me like that little girl!"

HAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ROFLMMFAO...Oh no, he didn't...but he did...and I didn't take kindly to that. As I stated before, I really never has been his little girl, and therefore I don't bestow the right to call me that on him. And I told him so.

"LITTLE GIRL? REALLY? SINCE WHEN? HERE'S A BEE IN YOUR EAR. YOU HAVEN'T RUN MY LIFE IN A LONG TIME AND I WILL BE DAMNED IF YOU ARE GOING TO START NOW! TELL YA WHAT. YOU STAY OUT OF MY LIFE AND I WILL NOT BE IN YOUR'S. NOT ANYMORE! THIS SHIT IS RIDICULOUS...GROW UP. I AM DONE! "

Thats the g-rated version, at the end of the real version I told him to fuck off. I didn't have him then, and I damn sure dont need him now.

I was told I didn't want to start something with him...I told him "I haven't started anything, you did, and I am going to be the one to finish it." His reply was "UH, I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER!"
Ha! "UH, NO, YOU WON'T" Then he hung up on me. Really adult of him. BOO HOO WAHH HAHHH! Wuteva.....

I am done being torn down from where I pulled myself up to from the last time something got in the way of his life. He always has to keep shit stirred up. I'm just not allowing his stirred up shit to affect me anymore. I know who I am loved by, and who I can go to. That doesn't include him.

Such things will never pass my lips, or my fingertips (considering I am typing) again.

Not Anymore..........

Another Morning Almost Gone

So far this morning, I have actually been in a fairly decent mood. I actually got to have a normal conversation with my husband, with no arguing. Not that we do that all the time, it was just nice to be able to cut up and giggle at each other.

Well...scratch the good morning, I may have to work a double.

Hmm. Well I have avoided the double. Not the way I wanted to although. Maybe I just try to help out too much. Or...suggest options too much, one of the two. I kinda feel like me trying to help, I have somehow stepped on someones toes, or overstepped some kind of boundry. Why do I feel the need to apologize for trying to do something for someone?

Sometimes I just don't know how to feel or what to say. Which is where I am right now.

How can someone go from having such a good morning to "HUH? Say WUT?" in 2 seconds flat? I know I'm not that damn old yet.

Ok, so maybe I will do a lil' editing on this post later, not sure, but check back.

Unhappy Accepting Help?

Why if you were in a dire straight and someone was offering you help, without asking anything in return, would you turn it down?

First off, in my personal case...I don't ask anyone for help unless it is ABSOLUTELY necessary for me to do so. I have accepted help in the past, and done my damndest to take care of the person who helped me out, even if they didn't expect anything in return. I was taught that way. But for me, even in that situation, things would backfire. Not every time, but enough.

I can understand to a point being too proud to accept help. But being too proud to, sometimes makes people look like they really want to be in the situation they are in..if they aren't going to take help, then they need to do what they can to better it.

I can also see the flipside to that. Someone who will put themselves in that situation, just because they know that someone will be there to help them pick up the pieces, and still not do anything to better themselves. In essence becoming a "mooch", well that is the best word I can say without becoming vulgar. Living off of the generousity of anyone and everyone stupid enough to play into the scenario.

I wish life was more cut and dry in instances such as these. I hate being torn one way or another. A happy medium would be nice.

But life doesn't always go the way that we want it to, does it? All the aggrevation isn't worth what it does to you. I have to learn this myself. Knowing it and practicing it are 2 different things tho.

Spilt milk is nothing to cry over, neither is water under the bridge. Maybe someday soon, I can get to that point early on in a situation, and not dwell on things that nothing can be done about.

Keeping Busy..(LoL)

Today, I am working on getting things done that have been staring me in the face for a bit.

Just things that I have been putting off that I need to get off my plate...Freakin' paperwork, GRRR.

I had to take a few minutes to rejuvenate my brain, because it was nearly flatlined....LoL

Ever feel that way?

God, lately I have been that way alot. Forgetting things I wouldn't normally forget, I am much too young for Alzheimer's, so it must be sometimer's or CRS.

Well for now, I am going to get back to what I was doing before I forget what it was....I'll check in again later.

Whata Blah Day....LoL

We have had the kind of weather that you would rather be at home in bed instead of at work doing your job the last couple of days....

Dern the Hurricane turned Tropical Depression Gustav! BUT!!!! I am very thankful that we only got what we have...we actually had an outer band of the storm headed straight for us, but we dodged the bullet and it stayed to the east of us.

God Bless the people who weren't so fortunate.

Today at work really wasn't bad, just, well, BLAH! I had plenty to keep me busy, and I did. But if i had my rathers, I would have been curled up in my bed under my comfy comforter.

Sucks to be only 30, and have so many aches and pains. Dern the knee injuries that sparked arthritis at a young age, so that I must apply Theragesic and wear a neoprene knee brace just to walk more comfortably. The stupid affliction called "clumsy" gets me more frequently than I care to admit. The last three incidents really prove that....

#1. I fell in the building I work in July 11th, and I am sure that the people that were there got a good laugh out of it... I hit the floor on my right hip and ribcage, also landed on my right hand and smacking the right side of my face on the floor..causing me to bite the inside of my cheek...so, ya..that was really uncomfortable for days...had a bruise on my right arse cheek the size of Texas, and for weeks my ribs were very sore...yes I did get an x-ray, no fractured ribs. Thank GOD! Just severely strained muscles.

#2. August 14th, I'm not quite sure what happened, but I was on my way out of my front door, and walking down the 1st of 15 steps on the staircase at my apartment...Not quite sure if I just lost my balance, or if I twisted my ankle, but the next thing I know, I fell down the first 7 of the steps, and when I came to a stop, I was hanging on to the railing by my right hand, my shoulder was wrenched, with my right foot under my back and my left leg twisted in an uncomfortable position in front of me, at least my brain was smart enough to get my body to lean back so I didn't fall head first. The next couple of weeks has been sore as well..can't even recoop from one fall, before I have another....GEEEEEZZZZZZ!

#3. Sept. 1st..Labor Day. My husband, my brother and I, take my daughters down to the lake to swim. Well, at the paticular place we were, you have to swim between a T-peir, and a smaller dock, and to get into the water you have to walk down the stairs that are on the T-peir. My girls made it down them no problem...but I...knowing what kind of clutz I have been lately, decide to go down very slowly as to prevent myself from another injury. You guessed it, even trying to be careful proves that I am really frickin' accident prone. I get down to the next to the last step, which is wet, of course as the water splashes up on it...and the last step is completely in the water.. WHOOPS!!! Down I go, and Greg freaked out...knowing that I hurt myself pretty badly the last 2 times "BABE!!!!! ARE YOU OK????" "SURE HUN!!! JUST BE GLAD THERE WAS A BODY OF WATER THERE TO BREAK MY FALL OTHERWISE YOU WOULD BE DRAGGING ME OUT AND CALLING AN AMBULANCE!!!"

Needless to say, my feet have been swollen since then, I know nothing is broken, otherwise walking would be more of a problem, although, I am not totally pain free as I walk. The only other obvious injury from the latest fall is a spot or 2 on the inside of my left wrist were the first layer of skin was ripped off. Not very big but somewhat painful none the less..

I have always heard bad things come in three's. Well, I have had my #3, so maybe, just maybe my luck will change for the better and hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day!

Something Exciting....(for me anyway!)

My mother, had a hysterectomy on the 25th of this month, no, this is not the exciting part. I had recently been to my doctor and had been told something that concerned me.

That I had the same condition that required my mother have a hysterectomy. YAY! NOT!!!

Anyway. I was scheduled for an ultrasound, for a couple of other reasons, we won't go into the findings on that...I just don't even wanna talk about that...

But when I asked about the condition that I have that caused my mother to have a hysterectomy, my doctor told me that the stage I am in, should not cause me to have to worry about having one myself. Right now anyway, he said hopefully I can creep up on the change of life before I have to do anything.

For me, that is exciting. I don't have to be cut wide open and parts taken out. LoL

Let's Try This Again...

So...at some point in the not so long ago past....like oh, I dunno...3-5 years ago, I had my blog on here, and I quit using it for some reason.

Well, I'm going to try this here thing again! So, wish me luck having something something to write on here!